Tuesday, 19 November 2019

New Begins

Why does the warmth of spring move me unlike the harsh chill of winter? Why must I always wish for that golden warmth when I miss the beauty of winter? The possible snow, the family and friendly get togethers, eating more than my body weight in food, I need to be in the moment. Why has that never been possible?

Friday, 25 October 2019

New Series Of Shorts

Please allow this is partly scripted (I prefer mostly improv). Characters involved are totally fictionally no matter how life like they may appear.

Monday, 7 October 2019

First Video From Hivenn

Tuesday, 17 September 2019

Constant Pain and Heavy Bleeding Whilst Living Your Best Life: My Top Tips for Living With Endometriosis

Hi. I had an operation back in October for Endo (you can read more on my other blog posts about that whole messy ordeal). So just a quick warning, this is going to get graphic. If I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to spread awareness like I ALWAYS PREACH I DO TO MY MATES I need to come clean about some of the serious struggles I have day to day. Even writing this down on a laptop, please let me inform you, is PAINFUL. I'm rarely this honest with myself, I hide my pain with smiles and coffee and smoking. Humor is my go to, art is my friend, I'm a social being now which is nice as I like to be in the company of nice people whilst I'm suffering. But that's it, it might sound OVER-DRAMATIC to you, but to me this is my umm...life. This is my life. Laying on my bed today. So far TODAY my condition has caused me to call 111 and they're calling an ambulance because I've lost a fair amount of blood in the past two hours. So far in the LAST TWO MONTHS I've lost TWO JOBS. Because of my condition. TWO JOBS I loved with all my heart. Basically I'm a GARDENER right. You can interpret gardener however you want but working for Idverde I loved it. I did the hard landscaping side twice and my body couldn't physically cope with the stress. So the next company I worked for, I still loved but not naming them as it's kinda casting shade...they tried to put me on hardlandscaping- don't get me wrong I was a 'casual worker' basically trial week to test your stamina but me, I'd rather be honest about what I can't do. I'm not gonna pretend I can wheelbarrow gravel up and down a plank of wood on a steep staircase ALL DAY when I'm gonna collapse by 2pm. It's not good, it's not good WORK PRACTICE. I can do it...when I don't have constant heavy bleeding. It's not because I'm a WOMAN that I can't do it. It's because I need AN OPERATION. I'm amazed I havent' cursed so far and I've been somewhat articulate. This is breaking my spirit to be honest with you and I feel for ANY HUMAN OR ANIMAL OR EVEN PLANT with an invisible illness. Every day I love waking up but I never know how my body is going to be that day.
The next hour even. Anyway. Please contact me on various social medias instagram- elizabeth.jazzy email - hivenn@hotmail.com
Thanks for listening.


Monday, 16 September 2019

New Chapter

So hi. My name is Jasmine Cox (Elizabeth online but let's be real hurrr). I've been trying to come up with a solution to my lack of blogging inspiration for the last two years odd and I've always come up a bum note. I have no real reason ,I used to love blogging. Sharing with the fellow humans of the internet, what wasn't to love. I enjoy learning from other people too, I bonded with numerous bloggers over the years (special shoutout to Laura M, Megan who even came and stayed with me from the US on a nannyship). You can now get a better grasp seeing how serious this blogging lark is to me, I wasn't a very adventurous kid, I stayed out of trouble but I wasn't very sociable. Now as a free, 26year old lady, I can do what I want. Spend time working on projects of my choice is my greatest hobby, photography and filming, writing, exercise, etc. Anyway... my point. I went to a festival called Smallworld and a sweet lady in the communal shower area told me about SATURN RETURN. You should read up on it. I mean I'm 26 so it kinda doesn't totally apply to me but lately, I've felt very inspired to create and I know it's a great outlets for my current other issues. So yes, please accept me back in to the blogging community- I've missed it so. I'm planning new content, helping my friend create her own blog, food based posts, videos, etc etc. Lovin' life (ish).

Thursday, 12 September 2019

My photography through the years

Wednesday, 11 September 2019


Right me in 2015, left me in 2014. So since December 2017 I've been travelling down a deep dark hole of ovarian issues, fertility problems ,etc. It's been horrible. I'm feeling brighter about the whole situation now and I just wanted to share my final opinion on the subject.

A photo of me when I was 12...god I wish I could warn young me to get checked NOW. My DR's treatment of me has been poor to put it nicely. This started in Dec 2017 and it looks like I've been offered surgery september at the EARLIEST. The frustration I feel is unreal. I can't afford to go private and work wise this troubles me, I've been offered FOUR jobs, four lovely amazing perfect for me jobs but I can't accept them until after this surgery. Rant over on to the positivities!!

So I met my ex-partners boss Hamish last year (if you need tree work in south london contact them!) . cut above tree management. Hamish is a pro.

His friend gave me some great advice I hope she doesn't mind me sharing with you today!!
It seems there is no silver bullet and some things work brilliantly for some people, but not for others. However, there also seem to be some general rules: Endo is caused by an imbalance in hormones, specifically too much oestrogen. Something few people know is that there are several different types of oestrogen - some are beneficial and some are not. Your friend may already know all this, but it all came as news to me when I first started researching, and I'm still finding out more as I've recently been through early menopause (another Endo phenomenon often not talked about).

Here are some of the resources I found useful in my journey.
What your Doctor may not tell you about breast cancer by John R Lee M.D.
In fact, he's also written a couple of others that would be relevant: https://www.amazon.com/What-Your-Doctor-Tell-About/dp/0446615404

Endometriosis by Dian Shepperson Mills https://www.amazon.com/Endometriosis-Key-Healing-Through-Nutrition/dp/0007133103/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1521068957&sr=1-1&keywords=Dian+shepperson-mills
Dian used to work as an Endo-specialist Nurtitionist at the Hale Clinic in London.

Natural Fertility by Francesca Naish is a beautiful book with essential advice if you're trying to conceive naturally (or avoid conception actually too!). This became an absolute bible for me. https://www.amazon.com/Natural-Fertility-Francesca-Naish/dp/186351337X/ref=sr_1_4?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1521069010&sr=1-4&keywords=Natural+Fertility

If you're ever interested in having kids and end up having to go down the IVF route, look up Alice Domar's work. Her take on IVF and her research about relaxation and increasing success with IVF is brilliant. I STILL listen to her guided meditations (which don't mention anything to do with fertility. I just love her voice :-)

Get on to Dr Dan Purser's website. He's an expert at Natural Progresterone. But has a very annoying American voice! http://www.drpurser.com/

Support groups:
Endometriosis UK https://www.endometriosis-uk.org/information I went to a couple of their AGMs which had fantastic info sessions.

Endometriosis Association
They have a great e-newsletter and are usually the first to talk about trials and new treatments. I see they're now on FB too.

Alice Domar used to come to the UK through the Bridge Centre in London Bridge to do weekend workshops with people doing IVF. The support group that emerged from the weekend I spent there was integral, I believe, to me eventually becoming pregnant with our son Olli (who's now 10 :-)

Doctors: I went down the path of using Natural Progesterone cream. It's the only thing, apart from being on the Pill (but I didn't like the artificial hormones in that - they have a completely different chemical makeup to the natural or bioidential ones used in the creams and can have side-effects) that stopped my incessant and debilitating pain. If you go down the Natural or Bioidentical Progesterone route (the natural progesterone balances the excess oestrogen in your system) the do so under the guidance of a doctor. Just search online for Natural or Bioidentical Progesterone doctors. I used one that was in Ireland and did phone interviews :-)

I hope this helps. If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to email. I wish you every luck in finding some relief from Endo. I had laparoscopies, IVF and even egg donation. I now have two beautiful kids 6 and 10, and am painfree not just because of menopause. I became pain free as soon as I discovered Nat Prog.

These issues are so important to me right now...please don't hesistate to get in contact hivenn@hotmail.com or elizabeth.jazzy on instagram if you wanna add your opinion, I'd love to add other girls advice/opinions to this post as I find it helpful.