Tuesday, 17 January 2017

New Direction

Dear Internet, I'm going to try and give this blog a new positive lease of life (as panic! at the disco said, in a "a new perspective" - 'Stop there and let me correct it I wanna live a life from a new perspective'). It's going to get a little more personal (as Lindsay Lohan spot on said in her album "A little more personal"- one of my favourites as a kid that really spoke to me at the time...Daughter to father, these are, these are...The confessions of a broken heart, of a broken heart. I, I love you'). So yeah long story short I feel things sometimes and I'm going to try and put them in to words for this blog this year. That's a big aim of mine. Get across what I'm feeling in a clear and concise way. I can use pop culture, humour, sarcasm obviously to make this more entertaining for the listener but really what I want to achieve is being able to adult. I struggle with my emotions a lot, God (and my mum mostly) knows how much I really struggle day to day with feeling too much, being in pain anyway and having a weak immune system. Sorry if I overshare. Please unfollow me if ya uncomfortable with this kinda thing. It's still going to be based around pretty pictures I take but it's just going to have a lot of me alongside it. Like I am with my closest friends. I have been able to gain this moment of clarity because I have an amazing support network around me. My family I chose, the family that was given to me have pulled me through hell over the past few years and day by day I see improvements in my personality, I'm not bitter, I'm not full of angst, yeah I'm ill (over the past few months I've been dislocating more and my bf has almost had to call an ambulance twice and I was coughing up blood b/c of being on a morphine patch over New years) but when have I not been? I've been dealing with this day to day since I was THIRTEEN. I don't understand how the majority of people aren't in agonizing pain every day. Obviously there's a different between mental and physical pain. And really if you deal with either I'm so sorry. I want to open this blog up also b/c if it helps ONE SINGLE PERSON feel what they need to, not brush it under the rug...awesome. Please email me, if you have any questions like or want impartial advice...or to send me a cute pic of your cat/dog/iguana AWESOME. PLEASE DO IT. I want to interact with you guys, my favourite thing overall is to talk to people. Gain other peoples perspectives. ETC. Anyway. If you made it to the end of this, great. See you around soon.

 When in need...drink with friends (i'm top right)
 When in need...chill with friends (i'm middle left in the checkered shirt)
 (Midnight- Baymen's cat)
 (Me, 2012 on a boat to amsterdam)
 (Jacob nd I- London 2017)
 When in doubt...cuddle a cat
When in doubt...read

Lots of love.